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My only star
Some days I wonder.
Some days I see.
It all becomes,
so clear to me.
That it was meant.
For you to see.
How your existence,
follows me.
When I am breathing.
Or when I sleep.
I see your heart,
right next to me.
You are my passion.
You are my star.
My morning coffe.
All that I love.
But life is short.
And you are far.
So I must hide.
My only star.
Stranger
You meet a stranger on the street.
You shake their hand, you show your teeth.
They ask your name and where you sleep.
They take your bed, while you can weep.
You ask, why friend, what have you done?
Where have all your manners gone?
What made you choose, this ugly way?
Why can't you be, my friend today?
They say, well see, I am this way,
so you would never be like me.
I take and take and never give
So you could even cry or sing.
I take these things, I do not need.
To fill my own, sad destiny.
You see my heart, it's full of holes.
That’s why I take these darkened rol .....
My dream
What're my biggest dreams..?
My dream is to be with you,
to be by your side,
cuz I love you so much.
I have so many daydreams,
I wish to get married with you,
I wanna live with you,
cuz you mean everything to me.
We have so many good memories,
you are very dear to me,
you have a place in my heart,
you're my heart and soul.
I can't live without you,
I can't be there, where you don't exist.
We make each other feel good and laugh,
we are always there for each other.
We're never alone.
Your perfect for me,
every night I dream your still here.
I wish to see you there.
I love my kindergarden friend
You know me from kindergarten,
You held me in that garden.
You cared about me each day,
We were together every day.
We played, we laughed together,
we were made for each other.
When I moved out,
You cried out loud.
You cried almost a week,
but sorry, that I was weak.
Then I saw you in a next school,
I fell in love with you,
at volleyball practice.
You noticed, that I have something on you.
Then we talked and we got closer,
every day, we got closer than ever.
I started to trust and tell you everything,
to me, you are my heart, my life.
One day, I hoped to be your wife .....
from LOVE to TRAGEDY
I'm here again
A thousand miles away from you
A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who I am
I tried so hard
Thought I could do this on my own
I've lost so much along the way
As I sit and make my list
Thinking about the years I've missed
As the tear falls from my eye
I know the reason why I cry
Self-destruct, spiral down
Until your want becomes your need
Until I get up like I know I can
Or forever love the fall
Maybe I should just fall
And leave the world and lose it all
And if that's what you need
To finally see
I loved you through it all
Bring on the pills, rol .....
Snuff
Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again
So if I love you I have to let you go
And you should run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can't destroy what isn't there
Deliver me into my fate
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know
I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't .....
How to be...I can not see...
Should I stop or bend my spirit a little more?
I think of You, all the time.
You haunt my mind, from summer time...
Those cutest eyes, they cuddled me.
The smile of Yours, makes mine to grow. (:
This scent I felt...best drug, in many years.
I wish it would be all to that...
But I fell in Love with You my Dear!
Janek V. 14012017
I am just like a demon
I am just like a demon,
who is evil.
I like freedom
just like the devil.
My color is red,
I eat blood,
I like to be negative
not positive.
I wanna kill YOU,
I wanna feel YOUR fear,
if you dare
to show me.
I am a monster
I'm not like her,
I have a high temper,
you will be DISMEMBERED.
I am soulless,
I don't know, what is kindness,
look me the eye,
I can't tell, what you'll find.
I never wantes any of this
Okay, let me be
Let me be honest whit you all
Let me tell you what lives inside my soul
Yes this is why i write this song
For it to be my last help call
I never loved anyone
I never did
I just played whit ther feelings till they where gone
Or i just got read
To everyones face my lies fed
Trying to find my sead
Till this nonsense to my end led
Now i want my arms to be red
I never wanted to date anyone
I just wanted to feel love
Yeah it my sound harse for you some
I saw my faith, now im gone
Running from life like i allways did
Can you feel what i mean?
Now i just want .....
Elu pind
Elu hind
See maapind
Raiskame aega et tappa enda hing
Sest önne otsides
Me saatust trotsides
Me halba "ennetame"
Kuni jöuame enekani
Ehk keegi kunagi
Ehk tulevikus kuidagi
Saab keegi aru
Ahh jälle ajan ma oma joru
Miks nii vöimatu on leida önne?
Kukutades päevi, kulutades tunde
Ehk keegi kunagi, kuidagi. Saab aru et mul on ka sees Süda
Ja igavesti, igavikku ma vöiks armastada teda!
Ehk keegi kunagi saab aru mis on mu hing
Ja et siinsel kohal pole minu pind
Mis on see önne hind?
Miks siin nüüd pole sind?
Miks önn lendab kui lind?
Otse lennuki otsa, ja .....
Its been a long time....
When I see You coming at me
From far away side of the sea
In that moment, star is falling...
I make a wish, in that little niche
Moon is not hiding anymore,
It's in its full grace
In that split second, I imagine Your embrace.
And inside starts a powerful race
While time goes in slow motion pace.
I feel good vibes flow through me
You'll soon be here
Then starts another heartbeat...
Janek. V 12092016
The look
With Your green eyes,
Take a look inside My eyes,
and tell me
that I wasn`t, just another second prize.
Though, it won`t be much of a suprise,
cause You still couldn`t manage
to throw away Your disguise.
You are so rare
and dear
Stay with me
and be my hun.
-Janek V.
2011
Now I know, it ain`t Love
Sweet, You can be so sweet,
Is there anyone sweeter, than You?
Show me more of that
I wanna feel more,
This pain is not enough for me,
I like pain, like to be used and swept floor with
Oh, how I`d like to be Your mop.
Use me more, mess me up, make me want You more
Then muster everybody You know and laugh at me
Oh yeah! I want to feel the pain in vain
Feel free to gain my Love and care
But later on, when You get tired of bleeding me,
I`ll be strong and will walk away, away from pain, I do not deserve!
-Janek V.
Have a little self-discussion..
When you sit in your dark, silent room,
thinking you've failed everyone around you.
You may lose the light which guides you home,
or the person who gives you what you know.
How do you manage to hide your scars,
your face and red eyes from your dad/mom?
They love you more than words can say,
or is one of them who's tearing you away?
There's always a way out of this place
darker than the ebony black ground.
It's called life within the reality checks,
Is it much harder than it sounds?
No, it's not. You just have to believe.
But how, when everything is so unsteady?
Listen, th .....
Why do I know this?
You try to hide, You try so hard
You change Your face, You change Your site
You run wildly, smiling here and there
But underneath, You know, You cry. ( I know!)(regret?)(despair?)
I do pity You, I really do
I did care, for too long
All I got, was reject
Lies, dirt and neglect.
So what I wanted to say
Theres no way, not easy one
For change, the real one
You need more, than new colour or site. (Look inside...maybe You rot)
- Janek V.™
Senses
I want to touch Your skin, I´d like to crawl within,
...to feel Your essence, to get high.
...to feel this incredible scent, to be carried away
...to know how do You taste and how soft is your lip.
...to know how sun sets, when You sit near.
...to hear this insanely beautiful voice You deliver
...to hear thunder, when holding Your hand.
...to see those hair, waiving in the wind
...to see summer go cold and feel as its still cosy and warm.
...You to be my companion, and first lover in heart!
-Janek V. 19112015
Shedding
It was not so long time ago,
when my sky did shed its skin.
World collapsed and crushed everything I held so dear,
I did felt, that end was near.
Anger goes its own way, and probably this sadness too,
You know, You´ve got Your lesson,
not to fuck around, with peoples person!
Walk Your path and let me be.
You know I held You,
like no one before,
You know I Loved You,
like maybe no one after...
But theres still hope and a dream,
of a red headed Queen,
Who do have a heart of unbelievable burn
I am willing to trust and maybe to fall, for Her beautiful call. - Janek V.